Had time today to truly consider everything that has happened to us over the holidays and to consider behavior I have witnessed since M's dad's death. I had an "aha" moment regarding some of his brother's behavior and it wasn't a bad thing, just a sad thing. D. was much more human and less defensive at the memorial event and after than he had been at Thanksgiving. Time is making things easier for him (and us) and the less people around the nicer he and L. are. So will his mom quit inviting the whole kit and carload over to her home for the holidays--NO. But it will help to remember his brother and his wife can be pleasant when they wish and to remind myself, it may not be us the puts them on edge but the others may do it. I wonder if he has said unpleasant things about us to them and feels it must put up a front and be rude to underscore what he's said. No, now I am overthinking things.
Speaking of over thinking things, I have way too much time on my hands now that I am at home. I can see where some of his mom's issues come from, time on you hands has you focused on really strange things, like your kids, their future, your weight, what you eat, your husband and his feet(he didn't limp today) and other details to boring to relate here. But if my goal is to write and write daily, this is a start. The fact the few of the people mentioned here would even check for a blog and see this here is funny to consider. No one I know has gmail and figuring out regular email is a challenge for some of my family, so we will see.
Off to the store, I need (there's that word again!) dairy products and dog food.
LaRin
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